could i have any other disorder as well as borderline personality disorder?
years ago i was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder and my psychiatrist also accepted i have PTSD traits to.
im 31 and have endured a very hard life with abuse, victimization, mental abuse all throughout .
my symptoms from the age of 16 which got worse as years past by are :
mind racing, cluttered, scattered thoughts, forgetting what i was thinking minutes before —obsessive worries— repetitive asking questions on yahoo about same life circumstances —– impulsive outbursts of rage in public, difficult controlling aggression and rage ; antisocial anger towards people ; spacing out ( dissociation ) - persecutory paranoia , agoraphobia , intense panic and anxiety feelings when outside , palpitations ; a feeling of feeling abandoned and out of control : always found it difficult to concentrate and absorb information : ( although ive read books and understood them ) : keep having to re read sentences to understand them : mind drifts off whilst reading a page of words.
always had low self esteem, difficulty interacting, forming and maintaining friendships . im very intellectual and are often told im very intelligent, understand things well, talk well , and have a good mind. have a good imagination. can converse very well.
as a kid was quite hyperactive, always running around , but calmed alot into teenage years.
my mind always races every day, racing thoughts, keep forgetting things , my mind feels scattered with thoughts, difficulty trying to organise and structure.
have obsessive worrying thoughts about physical, mental health.
everyday i get mood swings, from feeling totally depressed and despairing one minute , then the next minute , ‘ ok ” again - if im in a severe depressive low , then someone talks to me, reassures me, gives me clarity —- my mood will suddenley lift to feeling ok again –
so would that rule out having bi polar ??
i used to have aggressive outburst in public, where stress would build up…my thoughts would race…disorganised….get paranoid that people were threatening me or persecuting me , get jealous of happy people — than i would just end up losing it like a mad man, threaten people attack, lash out at strangers….
this has greatly improved for years now….i learned to control my behaviour, been seeking help. even though psychotherapy isnt available because of lack of resources.
i often worry though do my symptoms mean any other disorder other than borderline personality disorder ??
like : OCD , GAD , bi polar , add , ?? what do you think ?
i lived as a reclusive for many years, developed agoraphobia , and only go out to pay bills do shopping etc - i have bad anxiety and panic attacks when i go out, hyper vigillant , cant venture far from my neighborhood anymore etc. i stay in my apartment most of the time etc.
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July 2nd, 2009 at 11:26 pm
I do not think you are bi polar they tend to be very low for weeks to months then very up. Sounds like adult ADD with the mind racing often times as if someone has a remote control to your brain and are surfing channels like on a TV, 3 secs here 2 min’s there, 45 sec here, sounds like adult ADD which they do have medication for. As for your panic issue there is many online support groups which can offer support and help you baby step to getting out more. Check these two sites out, hope this helps
Trish
July 2nd, 2009 at 11:26 pm
It’s hard to say, see a mental health professional and tell em exactly what you wrote here. I have somewhat similar symptoms as you, and I have OCD (and related disorders) GAD (and related disorders),ADD(not hyperactivity) and last but not least Bipolar Disorder.
I skimmed through again and my guess is you suffer from pretty horrible anxiety (as I did for many years), and you need help for it. I believe it is causing your other problems.
Best of luck! And honestly please try to see a psych, try to take up yoga, and change your lifestyle, exercise more, etc
July 2nd, 2009 at 11:26 pm
I think you are human.
one more thing I’d like to add, is the side effects of the drugs you are prescribed for psychiatric disorders are far worse than the problems you are experiencing in your life. get informed; http://www.cchr.org
best of luck to you
July 2nd, 2009 at 11:26 pm
Ok. One thing that is in your favor, you are so young, and been through so much. Another, is that you recognize your problems.
I am a 56 year old woman. I was diagnosed with Panic Disorder when I was around 40 years old. However, all my life I knew there was something "off" with me. You have so many multiple symptoms, I am no doctor, but I do think you can have more than one diagnosis.
For instance, I believe I also have ADD, OCD. I forget things, hate paper work, details, paying bills, drives me crazy. But I have to do it because there is no one else to do it for me. Socially, I enjoy socializing, but only to a point. Then after a while, I need to go back to my safe place and be alone. I enjoy my solitude.
Panic attacks, really bad. Nausea, hyper ventilation, sometimes even seizures. Horrible experiences. Deadly.
Are you on any meds? You appear to need. I take effexor. It keeps me stable. Do not have panic attacks anymore. But, without meds, would surely have them.
Have you tried walking? Yoga? Meditation? Exercising? These are all good things. Also, your diet. Eat well. Good healthy foods. Get the proper rest. Are you spiritual? God helps. Pray. The power of prayer is amazing. Please be well. I will pray for you.
July 2nd, 2009 at 11:26 pm
I actually have the same symptoms as you. Here’s my list of dx. Severe anxiety, severe depression. Borderline personality disorder, obsessive self harm, PTSD, agoraphobia, social phobia and BipolarNOS(not otherwise specified). I’m 24 and just started getting help. Do you have a support person? Or just talk with your PCP to see if there any meds that can help. I was antimed for years, but some do actually help! GL
July 2nd, 2009 at 11:26 pm
I suffer from panic disorder and I prefer to stay in my house most of the time, away from the outside world, but I have to go out to do shopping and go to work and sometimes it is hard - very hard. I find that meditation and breathing exercises help a great deal. I also try to exercise as much as I can. I wish you the best
July 2nd, 2009 at 11:26 pm
the naming of your diagnosis seems to be a big issue for you. psychiatric diagnosis is only to some degree valuable. you didn’t mention if you are on medications or how you feel about that. the diagnosis can be of hope for you because you know you want to behave differently and have a good life. diagnosis could lead to a simple problem like regulating your brain chemistry. it could be wonderful if that were the case. is it possible that all of the studying of psychiatric terms is too confusing. it would be to me. just some thoughts.