how do you handle todays society and people without snapping?

im 31 now and this has been my personality since very young , i was always sensitive , self centred , reserved , private, sensitive to the way people behave or what they said.. easily became angered if someone said the wrong thing - i would have an aggressive outburst and threaten them.

through these characteristics ive been victimised a lot through life , nearly in serious trouble with police……but its the way i always have been.

i used to choose certain friendships and leave others out , if someone said the wrong thing or behaved to reckless or loud or dramatic , i would snap and become angry.

also because of these personality traits, in the past, i have snapped and threatened to kill someone because they were playing mind games trying to undermine my self esteem…i remember barking at them through clenched teeth threatening to severley cause them great, untold damage.

because of these hardships i faced from society , simply because of my personality , i developed into quite a misanthrope - although you could argue i always was, even as a child.

in my life ive been victimised my loutish blacks , when i attended big schools , loutish white trash yobs - ive had it from all angles.

my only best friend at school was a guy who was italian called marco , we were very close - i long since lost contact. cant find him on the internet.

in the present , i deal with various personality disorders , and im pursuing assesment for undiagnosed anxiety disorders, im cooperating with mental health resources , with hope of getting psychotherapy at some point.

ive lived alone for 6 years in a 1 bedroom apartment on disability, owning few possessions , because of my hardships , i have missed out on all the normel life things like ; building relationships with anyone, being employed , getting qualifications.

i am very choosy of who i associate with because of the way my personality is and the way i have low tolerance and acceptance and easily take offence.

i came from a white working class family in england, that lived comfortably , through hard work , i have honourable parents , i was brought up properley , but developed these character traits , then developed psychological problems as a result of abuse.

my confidence and assertiveness skills have greatly improved , but i still have a low tolerance of certain people.

can anyone help me finally deal with people better or react without becoming angry and threatening ?

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