Suicidal ideation and past lives karma?

Hiya! Have been struggling with suicidal thoughts for a very long time… and it might be related to past lives, although I do acknowledge the fact that I might not have existed before.
Basically, I might have experienced a bit too much with White Light visualisations (never took drugs, not even smoked… nor did I drink alcohol except on social occasions). During that time, I experienced some flashbacks, and there was pictures of one past life where I got burned as either a normal person or as a high priestess in ancient Ireland. Later on, during a dream hypnosis, I had flashbacks from the French Revolution… husband was imprisoned but I wanted him to be released and be arrested instead of me (and eventually be killed) as I thought it’d be better for the kids if they had him back and not me.
A spiritual counsellor (sthg like a clairvoyant… paid attention as not to tell her anything but she was right about a lot of things she could never have had any influence on beforehand or known) told me that I was continuing my martyrdom in this life still, and it has made sense from early on.
Questions are:
1. If Wikipedia is right, it can’t be karma-related as karma is only related to words, thoughts, actions and actions you asked others to do… and not what has been done to you? What do you think?
2. Is there any use for me in traditional psychotherapy to get rid of those suicidal thoughts and my longing for death (because I’m used to it)?
3. What are occidental ways (don’t really be involved in wizardry, voodoo or shamanic rituals involving pigs’ heads and so on) to cancel that karma? Already been to a shaman but she didn’t get to the suicidal thoughts… just noticed I was quite lost LOL.

Thank you so very very veeeeeeeery much for all serious answers! And please not too much Christian content or talk about God or Jesus… I believe in them but can’t do anything with that sort of advice. Have a great day and Take care…

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